things they don't tell you...
I'll say what you're thinking on all things family, friends, food, fitness & fashion.
1. A girlfriend looked down at my phone yesterday asked why I haven't had my phone fixed yet. I broke it back in May when I was running with the stroller. I bent down to adjust the wheel and it fell out of place (aptly kept in my "cleavage" while I run), face down, shattering the screen. Don't you dare ask why there wasn't a screen protector.
2. So anyway, I told her that I did have the phone replaced. I shelled out the $130 to replace the phone with insurance. This broken screen is, in fact, a newly broken screen. You can imagine my frustration but I had no one else to blame.
3. I purchased a new car in May. The only new car I have ever owned. I love it and am proud of it. Then I crashed it while away on a weekend girls' trip in July. Just a fender bender but I was at fault. I went 7 years in a little Corolla without single accident but crashed my brand new car before I even made my second payment. FML.
4. Last week, while picking up the baby's toys I threw my back out. I guess I am old at age 30 because unfortunately it is a herniated disk. Perfect.
I am not telling you all of this just to complain, because trust me, I am incredibly embarrassed. But rather, I felt compelled to write about what my girlfriend, Gayle, calls "spinning."
Anyone who suffers from any amount of anxiety understands that feeling of being uncomfortable. Sometimes I just feel uncomfortable in my own skin, in my job, in my clothes, in my home, in my relationships, in life. PERIOD. Sometimes I can't get over myself and I can't get ahead. I can't get control of what is happening in my life; it is like everything around me is spinning out of control and I have no way of getting a hold of it. This is what Gayle calls "spinning." In my head I imagine a tornado that I have been swooped up in. I am like Dorothy. I am just waiting to be set down again but who knows when and where I will land. Until then I just keep spinning with little control.
I don't do well without control. So as I spin, I try to establish control in some form or another. Right now I am not working which is a small problem because when everything seems hopeless, I almost always maintain control professionally.
In order to get myself back on track I am campaigning to do the following:
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About the Author
I am Dom. A mom, teacher, novice writer, cook, wine drinker, and so much more- filling the internet with unsolicited stories, questions, dreams, recipes, and advice. I'll be the voice that tells you what everyone is wondering but no one wants to ask!